I just realized that it’s that time of every four years again when your alarm clocks are technically rendered useless by all those crazy jingle parades by those stupid politician. I mean seriously dude! Who plays(more like blasts, actually) songs that I either haven’t even heard of or am so sick of hearing so early in the morning!? Okay, maybe 10 o’clock AM isn’t so much of a morning anymore but the point is I was still asleep! And I swear I heard those things earlier a few more times. I just didn’t mind it so much because… well I was half asleep, I suppose.

Seriously though. It makes me even more disgusted about politics. The things they’d do win. Like those annoying posters that shouldn’t even be up  isn’t enough yet. 

I guess we do need someone to blame for everything though. I mean isn’t that the main role of our government? Those sassy economic and people stuff going on are just byproducts or something. At least that’s what a part of me thinks. Not like I’m official on anything though, especially not politics… or anything related to social science. Anthropology is sort interesting though. Just saying.

Anyway, back to playing Pokemon. Since I’ve technically beaten the game(Black 2)— beat the Elite Four, the Black Tower, everyone that needs battling, and caught everyone catchable in the Unova list and some of the folks in the National Dex— I’ve decided to go over it again. I started with a Tepig last night. This time though, I’m considering some other stuff I didn’t on my first play-through. Like the Natures and stuff. I’m actually EV training now. I thought EV training was tiresome back then but I guess it could be fun too… Aside from the fact that I just spent 3 hours killing 255 Attack EV pokes(Patrat, Pidove, etc.). I gave up after I got my target Attack and Speed EV though. Building the Defense is taking too long and Sewaddles are pain in the ass to find. Haha. I love the Maths in Pokemon. It’s been a while since I’ve actually laid out papers in front of me and computed for stuff. haha

I went out so hard yesterday my feet’s still cursing me today. I swear if it has a mind of its own, it wouldn’t walk for me today, tomorrow or for a couple of eternities. It would probably even take over my hands and cut its own off from the rest of my entirety and maybe even start a revolution to free all feet from slavery. Now while lying in a bed for the rest of my life seems a very tempting offer, I also have places I still want to go to. Of course I can still go anywhere even if I didn’t have my feet. The thing though is, I’m not a very vehicle-person. I prefer walking. But I guess I haven’t been walking that much for so long. Oh well, It was  fun anyway… sort of, if it wasn’t for some crazy revelation that has occurred to me while walking around.

My day started the same way as it usually does everyday. I played Pokemon until 10am then took a bath. The only difference yesterday was I got lazy and sort of… fell back on my bed. I stayed there for a very long time— around an hour or so. Then my bitches(meaning my room mates) started coming from works and falling into their beds, too. Then one of them suggested we go somewhere. So we did. It was my first time officially going out for four months so I was a little excited. I do go out sometimes but those technically doesn’t count since they’re just… well I can walk there. The trip yesterday involved lots of vehicles and much cussing and arguments whether we’re lost or not.

The idea was to go to to my bro’s workplace to annoy him. But we eventually decided against it since we were with his recent ex. Lol. They just broke up and she was hanging out in our place to, you know, “move on” and be angry. We passed by there though. They were giving me a tour, you see, since I didn’t really know where what was. The place’s called ATC(Alabang Town Center), a usual Tumblr Meet-up venue here in the Philippines. So yeah, at least I know how to get there now. I also know that I can walk there now. I don’t think I’d be hanging around there often since I get this feeling that no matter what I wear there, I’d feel under-dressed. Anyway, after  that we went to my other room mate’s workplace(I forgot what the mall was called) to annoy his boyfriend(which is also another room mate). We went there, annoyed him,  ordered some food, inhaled it in a couple of seconds, then waited for him to get off his work. After that, we rode some bus to another mall called MOA(Mall of Asia).

Now that’s where the revelation I was talking about earlier started. The place was big—no, slash that. It was humongous. It was too crowded too, it was overwhelming. There was this Pyromusical thing going on, you see. I haven’t seen that much people for two years so I guess it was a little too much for me. Anyway, we decided to see this pyromusical thing and went on buying foods and stuff. I was telling them the whole time that they were selling tickets for it but they didn’t listen to me. They eventually found out I was right and got a little disappointed. We scouted somewhere we can see it anyway, sat there for a while and ate.

It was decided that we were to go to Luneta Park after that. It sort of didn’t matter to me that much by that time. I was… lost in some feelings I didn’t understand. It wasn’t my usual frustration about life or love or consciousness. It wasn’t any sense of foreboding. I was just… lonely. I don’t think lonely was any better of a term than the other though. I mean… the place was so big. There were too much people. In an instant, some wheel started winding inside me and shifting into higher gear. My world suddenly expanded to all directions and I felt extremely small for it. It’s like that feeling you get when you put something small inside a gift box that’s too big for it. Or maybe that feeling you get when you wear something too big for your size. I didn’t know how to react or what I should do. I was rattling inside a box I didn’t belong to and I felt extremely out of place. I know there isn’t really anything to do about it but… the feeling was already there. I can feel the desperation of some part of me to fill in those feelings. In extension, somehow, while walking in there, I ended up wondering, “However on earth am I supposed to find her in this crowd?” Of course I wasn’t talking about anyone specific. Just a general “Her”. But it really hit me. Where was she right now? What could she be doing right now? How am I supposed to find her with these much people? I see big places in TV and Video games but somehow, being out there, beside The Big things, I felt so, so… small. I realized that it’s those times you’re beside these big things that you’ll realize your vulnerability as a human; your real insignificance as a part of a larger chaos. I see so many people over the internet and pictures but I usually just dismiss them as numbers and mere statistics but being there, being one of them made me feel very alone. I wasn’t alone, I know. But that number… I guess a thousand would be small for that place and it was already too overwhelming for me. Am I really supposed to single out some one person from all of that? It made me inexplicably lonely. Of course I’m not lonely because I was wanting to be with someone. Rather, I was lonely because I didn’t know why I was “alone”. Sigh. I wonder why I bother explaining it. Long story short, I wondered why I felt alone. Where was everyone? 

After that stream of thoughts, I stayed quiet for the rest of the trip. After watching a part of the firework stuff, we went to Luneta park and sat there beside Lapu-Lapu and ate some chocolates. They took some pictures while they were at it(I don’t really like being in pictures so I kept myself hidden from all of it). When we decided we were finally tired of it all, we got on a jeep that headed back to MOA, then road another one that heads home. We got home at 11pm.

Objectively speaking, it was one heck of a trip. I got to see real life big buildings(I haven’t really consciously admired one of those before) and imagine them falling down. The fireworks were great. I didn’t know what country(I think Japan and Finland were on) that great one was but it was great. I freaking lit the night. I mean like it wasn’t night in that part of the sky. So yeah, aside from some unnecessary brooding and my currently-aching feet, it was all fun. Sort of.

Today’s February 10. That means this post, as the title suggests, would contain stuff that happened yesterday. Of course that is unless you think Time doesn’t really move and we’re actually still in yesterday, one week ago and the “beginning” of time all at the same time. In that case… I don’t really care. That’s not what I want to write about today. Haha.

Okay, so straight to the main topic: I bought a Nintendo 3DS yesterday. Haha! Yes, bitches, I have lived one of my longest-standing dreams. It’s probably not much to most of you but as you would know, I technically live on my own(my younger bro’s existence would be rendered void for today since he wore what I was supposed to wear today without telling me) so being able to buy my own stuff is a pretty big achievement for me.

Anyway, it was sleeker than what I had in mind. My other room mate’s NDS lite looked weirdly ancient compared to it. The only thing I could complain about it would be the fact that it’s more secured than the other consoles and it’s crappy camera. But it’s not like I’ve got anything I’d like to take a picture of. Of course that’s unless you have Ikomachan-my-loves then that would be.. let’s see… an entirely different post—an entirely different blog, even. *Ehem.

Well, to be honest I was just aiming for something small like a DS lite so I can buy a decent phone as well after it. But then I realized I don’t have any use for a phone. And besides, I already have a phone… or at least what I would like to think is a phone. Haha. It’s old you see… Okay, I think “old” doesn’t quite cover it. I don’t even think “ancient” or “prehistoric” would. Long story short, it’s… eldritch(sort of). But who cares!? It still receives messages(which I barely read anyways, and if I do, would probably be two days or more late) and calls. Communication is for the weak after all! We communicate because we need to transfer certain information over to another server because ours isn’t “currently” able to handle it. Meaning, if you don’t have to communicate, you’re sturdier than the others. Lol. Every man is an island! Humans are stand alone programs and the idea that people needs other people to survive is one of the greatest lies in all human history! Lol. 

Okay, I was joking. Or maybe I wasn’t. Who care’s right? That’s not what I wanted to write about anyway.

Oh and I bought Pokemon Black Version 2, too, which is a shame since I haven’t played through Pokemon Black that much yet. I thought it was an update, like how Yellow was for Red and Blue, Crystal for Gold and Silver and Emerald was for Ruby and Sapphire so I got that instead. Apparently, it’s a sequel, not an update. I should’ve Googled it first. Now, so many OC senses are ringing inside my consciousness all at the same time, bidding me to finish the first game first before I continue this game. The mental warfare isn’t over yet as of the moment and I’m currently struggling, trying to stop myself from going back to the store and grabbing a copy of Pokemon Black. Now while that wouldn’t be too much of a bad idea, I won’t be able to survive that without crippling damages to my current financial standing. I’m really glad I own handcuffs.

Aside from those, I bought my valentines date yesterday, too, by the way. Oh wait… I meant bought “my valentine DATES yesterday”. The first one’s this gorgeous little thing called A Wild Sheep Chase. You probably already know this but it’s by Murakami. But in case you didn’t… well there. The other date is a relatively chubby one called The Spiderwick Chronicles, The Complete series… or something that goes along those lines. I can’t remember, sorry. Anyway, what’s nice is I got the latter for Php399(A little over 10 bucks, I’d assume). Haha! The whole series for 10 bucks. And it’s really complete, with all the drawings and some bonus artworks in the end. It’s… I don’t know. I’d say glorifying but I’m afraid that isn’t quite about enough to describe the feelings it gives me. Oh well. Whatever it is, I think I’ll be having a pretty nice valentines this year… in a matter of speaking. Haha. *insert forever alone jokes here*

So… that was it. After hours of walking around the mall, I went home, asked my room mates if they wanted to go out and eat out(my treat), went out to eat, went home and spent the whole night playing the game while internally battling with my mind(as I’ve mentioned above). I went to sleep at around 5am this morning after 6 cups of instant noodles, 2 cans of Coke and 8 hours worth of gameplay. Haha. For some reason I can feel my life breaking down even more into molecular dusts in the future because of this. 

Oh well.

Today’s RO’s maintenance. I forgot. And they’re merging two servers today, too: New Loki and Valhalla. The server’s going to get the former’s name. At least I won’t be confused about it since I play on New Loki.

Anyway, I found out about this movie, by the way, with Jeremy Renner in it. It’s called Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters. I should say, that was a nice idea. All these new fairy tale versions is starting to become a trend. I think Alice in Wonderland was first, right? Correct me if I’m wrong. Speaking of Fairy tales, did you know that the Grimm brother’s original name for Cinderella was Ashputtel? And Snowwhite’s Snowdrop? And that Hansel/Hans and Gretel were names used multiple times in different stories? It’s somewhat equivalent to the common English names John and Margaret, meaning, these names were more like generic ones.  I mean John is one the most common English names you’ll ever hear. Margaret… well I think Mary would be a more appropriate equivalent for female names. That’s how it goes.

Okay, I’m blabbing again. Sorry. Today’s incredibly boring. No work. No play. The sun’s hidden behind dark clouds. Even Hatsune Miku’s Last Night, Good Night sounds a notch sadder. So yeah. I guess I’ll be reading some stuff for a while to kill time until maintenance is over. I’ll be leaving you guys alone forever now.

That’s gotta be one of the most annoying things on RO. It makes several OC senses tingle all at the same time whenever I’m cleaning an area of the map. I mean how am I supposed to hit them when I’m a melee? 

Anyway, I finally turned into an assassin. I made another character yesterday and played it for hours. Finally managed to get that stupid Necklace of Oblivion after repeating the test and heh. Haha. I just want to huzzah myself for that. This would be my first second job character. 

Okay now I’m planning to keep this assassin first and make a blacksmith. Haha